update.

I have been so busy with everything since the midterm break ended. Assignments, tutorials, readings, projects... And my self-confidence is leaving me... I get increasingly stressed out by the fact that i keep failing my listening quizzes for Japanese lang, my vocab quizzes, and I think it'll affect my overall grade, and my CAP, which has dropped miserably after the first sem from 4.1 to 3.75. I know I should just enjoy my studies and not care so much about results, but seeing others who are enjoying their work, doing well in their studies and seemingly lead a carefree and happy life just makes me feel that I want to be like them. But I can't. I am stupid. I need to spend twice as much time as others to understand something. I don't know what's got into me.

I just want to do well in something, anything. Is that so difficult?